Life

Life isn't fair. We all know that. But what if you are put in a situation where it's not up to you to change or to fix what life throws at you. What do you do? How do you fix something that wasn't broken, or even cracked? What if you thought it wasn't broken? What if you were blindsided? Like me. I thought it was all fine and dandy, then the rug was pulled out from under me. This relationship that I thought was going fine, crumbled in a matter of minutes. I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do to make it all okay again. I thought we were the kind of friends who could get through anything, but I guess not. I never thought something like this would tear us apart. I never knew that this would ultimately end everything. But I will let you go If it will save what little we still have, I will. Space is what you say was the problem. Space is what you said needs to close. You also say i'm a different person. I've changed in some way that you don't agree with. Isn't that life though? Isn't that what we all have to do at some point? Change? Grow apart....adjust? Maybe it's like a race. I am just a little ahead of you...or the other way around. I guess I will never know. Or never did, but I will try and find out. I won't completely let go of either of you because I care too much. Best friends doesn't describe us. More like sisters. I miss you guys. I have always, I just didn't show it the right way, and now I will regret this for as long as I live. Maybe in the future we will find each other again. Maybe we will find that sisterhood that we once possessed. But for now it will be on the back burner. I will admit my mistake. And I will admit that I was wrong. I'm sorry. I love you guys and will miss you.

I'm so sorry.