Saturday, July 23, 2011

It's Been A Long Week

This week my bestest friend Carlos Westbrook left for YoungLife Camp. I was supposed to go, but one thing after another never fell in my favor. I miss that guy! We hang out almost every day all summer, then he leaves for a week and I am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! Then he will be back for about three or four days, then he leaves again for WildLife Camp! I leave for Band Camp (Yes I am in marching band and it is the greatest thing in the entire world!) in two weeks while he is at WildLife....We pretty much have three days to hang for about a month. On the bright side though, he does come back on Tuesday so who has two thumbs and is excited to finally see her best friend? THIS GIRL!!!! Well I got some stuff to do (Not really, but I am pretty much just ranting now) and people to see (That is a lie...)! So Peace and Love!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

A Key Point In My Life

It occurred to me recently that I am just going through the motions of life. I mean I do go to parties and have fun, but most days I will wake up at noon and then just sit around all day. I need to get out more. I need to see the world while my vision is still good! I need to experience all of what life has to offer! I need to take life by the reigns and seek the true meaning for me. That is essentially what we are all doing right? Going through life trying to find our 'place' or 'duty' in life. Honestly, I don't think that there is this set, magical reason we are all here. I think we are here to co exist and find ourselves. Not what we are supposed to do, or what we think we are supposed to do, but who we are as people. I feel we were put here to find friends, lifelong partners, buddies, and family. Not only this, but to help each other. Be the helping hand to someone in need. Provide the steady ground that may be all someone needs. That to me is the meaning of life.

Monday, July 11, 2011

I am Mister Solo Dolo!

I went to the KiD CuDi concert last night at DTE Music Theater and it was AMAZING! Not only did I get the chance to hang with some pretty amazing people for the night, see one of the sexiest men alive on stage rockin it, and have a blast with complete strangers who share the same love for great music that I do; I have a head full of memories to last me a lifetime! I want to thank all of you had gone to the concert last night because you all made it worth while :) It still baffles me that I was even in the same vicinity as such an amazing, influential, and talented musician as KiD CuDi! I said it a million times last nigh, but it was an experience that I will never trade for anything! Not only was KiD CuDi amazing, but Chip the Ripper was just as fa nominal! I have to say that I had never heard of him before, but I definitely liked what I heard last night! I encourage all of you out there that when you get the chance, to go to a KiD CuDi concert! It is absolutely worth every penny! Well Goodbye for now! Peace and Love!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Life

Life isn't fair. We all know that. But what if you are put in a situation where it's not up to you to change or to fix what life throws at you. What do you do? How do you fix something that wasn't broken, or even cracked? What if you thought it wasn't broken? What if you were blindsided? Like me. I thought it was all fine and dandy, then the rug was pulled out from under me. This relationship that I thought was going fine, crumbled in a matter of minutes. I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do to make it all okay again. I thought we were the kind of friends who could get through anything, but I guess not. I never thought something like this would tear us apart. I never knew that this would ultimately end everything. But I will let you go If it will save what little we still have, I will. Space is what you say was the problem. Space is what you said needs to close. You also say i'm a different person. I've changed in some way that you don't agree with. Isn't that life though? Isn't that what we all have to do at some point? Change? Grow apart....adjust? Maybe it's like a race. I am just a little ahead of you...or the other way around. I guess I will never know. Or never did, but I will try and find out. I won't completely let go of either of you because I care too much. Best friends doesn't describe us. More like sisters. I miss you guys. I have always, I just didn't show it the right way, and now I will regret this for as long as I live. Maybe in the future we will find each other again. Maybe we will find that sisterhood that we once possessed. But for now it will be on the back burner. I will admit my mistake. And I will admit that I was wrong. I'm sorry. I love you guys and will miss you.
I'm so sorry.