Monday, December 13, 2010

A Change In My Life

Have you ever thought about how one person, one thought, one idea can change your life forever? Leave a permanent mark on your heart and your soul? This person can be alive or dead, they can even be older or younger than you. In my case, it was the story of a 12 year old girl who changed my life forever. It was her personality, her jokes, her friends, amazing family, and story that took hold of my heart and has stayed there since I first read her story. This little girl's name was Kimberly Eileen Linczeski. She was a 12 year old girl who loved her friends and loved to laugh. She was the kind of person to stick up for herself, and not let people get to her. She was a strong willed and kind spirit. She has ulitmatly showed me that I can be strong too. That I can take charge of my life and not let people walk over me. I honestly believe that Kimberly is looking down on not only me, but her mother and family and friends and is smiling because, even though she has left, she is still here living through us all. She is greatly missed, and loved by everyone she touched. She will always be in our hearts, and her spirit will forever be by us as we go on in life. I can say honestly and truly that I didn't personally know Kimberly, but she is the one person who i will always keep in my heart. Her mother and friends will always be in my heart as well, and I will never forget the things they have all told me about this amazing girl. We all miss you Kimberly! You will always be in our hearts!

xoxo- Sarah Rebecca Cubr

Saturday, December 11, 2010

He looks at me,
I look away and smile,
He says hi,
I smile and nod,
He gives me a high five,
I want to give him a hug,
He waits for the right time to lean in,
I want that moment to have been long ago,
I get butterflies,
He has no idea,
I think it's funny,
He wants to know,
I will never say,
He says it first,
I want to be with him,
He can't picture it,
He loses me,
I cry.
Love is lost.
Never to be found again.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

The World Through My Eyes

After looking into Kimberly's Story, I have realized how rude and cruel the world really is. Especially the people who inhabit it. I walk down the halls at school and I hear what people say and it baffles me to just hear how people talk about each other. I mean what makes one person better than another? Hair color? How many friends you may have? What kind of music you listen to? It just doesn't make sense to me.

I, myself, have been on the butt-end of some cruel remarks. But that more or less stopped in 6th grade because no one really cared anymore. Or so I thought. I was in lunch one day sitting with my friend Mary. Our friend Shelby was sitting a couple tables away, and I wanted to say Hi. So I went to her table and said Hi and gave her a hug, then as I was walking away, a kid who I haven't talked to since the last day of school last year says 'Yeah walk away you fat B****.'......Ok.....The next day in zero hour, I say him and I wanted to find out what his problem with me was. But when I went up to talk to him, he walked away like he was scared. This happened two weeks ago. Last night was our Homecoming dance and he was there. The people in my little group called him over and I rolled my eyes and ignored him. Then he looked at me...

And apologized. His reasoning for why he said that to me was that he is just an A**. Which is true, but that isn't a logical reason as to why he would say that. And I just wanted to have a good time, so I said it was forgotten and left it at that. His apology doesn't totally excuse what he said in the SLIGHTEST, but it does put him on the right track.

This little event made me really upset because I didn't understand why he would say something like that to me, without me doing something to him in the first place. It just goes to show that not everyone in the world is like the actors and actresses of Bullycide, and that not everyone thinks the same as we all do. That is one thing I hope this play changes, is the way people talk about each other because they don't realize how bad their words can hurt and sting.

Come and see Bullycide on October 29th, 2010 and the Masonic Temple in Flint, MI. This is a public performance so seats are limited. This will truly change how you see other people.

See it. Hear it. STOP IT.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

When life gives you a broken heart.

When life gives you a broken heart, you run from it all.

When life gives you a broken heart, you run from everyone.

When life gives you a broken heart, you see everything as a threat.

Life can be tough. It can suck like nothing else. It can also be a beautiful thing to experience. When life gives me a broken heart, I run away, but I also see the beauty of the situation. It's nothing wrong with what I did or how I acted, it's just not something that you can control. Life. It's a fragile glass ornament on a high shelf. So easily broken and lost. But when the light hits it just right, magnificent sparkles flutter around your head. Another doesn't always have to be there. They can wait. They waited for you a long time, and they can wait until your broken heart is finally healed.

Love it, Hate it, Embrace it.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Speechless!

Well It's been a while huh? Anyway, since the last I actually blogged, a LOT has been going on! So the White Box Kids have been meeting up and we have some ideas for skits/music video parades! For example, there is Thelma's Life, and a mash up of Lady Gaga songs including: Alejandro, Poker Face, Bad Romance, and Circus by Britany Spears! It'll be epic! We need all of you to look up our channel and favorite and rate our videos and give feed back as to what else you would like to see :) I hope to hear from all of you, and I hope that you will spread the word and tell your friends :) Well, Now You Know! :D


xoxo, SarahSaur

Friday, July 2, 2010

New Things, New People!

Hey everyone! It's ya girl here haha :) I just wanted to inform everyone that a couple of my friends and I have started a little comedy "group" if you will, where we make videos, and skits of different things such as Parodies of different music videos, and actual music videos for different songs. We have a Youtube channel as well which is WhiteBoxKids (all one word). Thanks for all your support with the blog, and hopefully the support with the White Box Kids! Thanks again to you all who read this and i hope you enjoy the skits and such! xoxo Sarbear :)o o

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Losing a Love

I know you,
you know me,
we know each other,
So, why can't it be?
The one single gene
that got in the way
the one thing,
that i will never say.

If only , if only!
i could give you my heart
the one thing i do have
but would never break apart.
the only one i want to love!
to be by, to see by, to live and leave by.
but that one single gene!
that got in the way,
that one thing,
i will never say.

We still say nothing
of that single gene,
that will always get in the way
it will be there to taunt
to leave nothing to flaunt.
i wish you saw,
what i see in you,
the beauty of your smile,
the beauty of us two.

but i'll always sit
and wish to feel,
what others waste and give away,
what others leave
some thing to conceive,
like that one single gene...
That
Will
Never
Leave.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Something Gone

Subtle sunshine,
Streams through my window,
Sitting on my billowing bed,
I cry.

Cry for me,
Myself,
And I,
For my almost wasted life,
Of hurt,
Pressure,
And broken love.

I think about,
All i have hurt,
All who i have left,
Loved,
And lost.

So much lose,
And not enough gain,
So much remorse,
So much pain.

A can't see the end,
Nothing can mend.
Only time can heal my broken
Spirit,
Broken soul.
I feel as though,
There is something gone.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Uplifted spirits

Talking is one thing,
Wanting is another.
I want to hate you,
But you make me feel happy.
I want to leave you,
But you keep me coming back.

We talk, yes,
We even have conversations,
But I am always finding myself wanting more.
I always walk away wishing i had said one more thing,
Then we could stay and talk the day away.

Just be by each other,
And no one else to interfere,
No one to decide our fate,
No one to tell us that the ending is near.
There's not a single soul,
I'd rather stand here with,
Not another person I'd rather be here with.

I wish i could have held on for a little longer,
And not let you go,
Not let what we had,
Slip
Through
My
Fingers...

No! not again!
It will be different this time!
I will change and do anything for you,
Just to be with you.
I want to make you see what I do,
But i know you will just turn away.

You never seem to get it right,
Even in your dreams.
You divert the situation,
By leaving and running away.
But does that, or will that ever help,
If I really do need you to stay?

It won't,
I already know,
Because you my friend,
Will always be on the go.

This is ME.

Many times i look in the mirror,
And see the fake me.
The person i try to be,
But I never succeed.

I look and wish and hope to be real,
Be the person i feel,
Should be seen by everyone,
The person that should make me feel,
Loved.

I try to look past the unknown figure,
To the person behind them,
The much stronger and beautiful one,
That is hidden from society,
The person no one wants to know.

This always fails,
And is always a waste,
Because the other person is afraid,
Of being unique.

But isn't that what life is?
Being yourself?
The person you want to be?
Being...happy?

I take it all in,
And peel back the layers,
Until the other girl,
Who loves to dance and twirl,
Have fun,
And be with people,
Is seen.

The girl...

Is
me

Monday, May 10, 2010

.Love and Lies.

Can I ever see why you hate me?
Could I ever stay in the place that makes me happy?
Can't I ever find what I am looking for?
I could, I should, I can't...
And I won't.

I wish I could find the real meaning,
Behind your words,
Behind your looks,
Behind your heart.

I want to know the real you,
I want to see under the shell you put out,
But all you do,
Is look, laugh,
And walk away.

Wishing, wanting, and waiting,
Suck.
Doing, talking, and loving,
Better.
Laughing, caring, and holding,
Love.

Look past the lies,
The tries,
The illusions,
Look for the real,
Honest to goodness,
TRUTH.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

To the ones I love(:

Okay so I thought I needed to dedicate an entry to the people in my life who have not only taught me something about life, but taught me something about myself. To start off, my mom Sherry. she and I can talk about ANYTHING, and we get along really well. She has taught me everything I know aobut shopping, sewing, and every other aspect of my creative life. I love you mom :) My dad Chris. Yes we fight, but what father and daughter don't? He is a huge part of my life and he has made me the respectable person I am today :) He is one of the people I can turn to when I need help I love you daddy :) Mary Candace Armour. What can i say? She and I have been best friends since 3rd grade! She has taught me that it is okay to cry and be vulnerable at times and that it is okay to not be perfect all the time. She has also taught me how to have fun :) Sabrina Faye Gordon. Girl, we have been through soooo much, and it has only made us stronger in the end. I love you and I always will because you are the person who showed me that i don't need a guy to make me happy. I can just be myself and be by myself, and still be happy as a clam :) I can't believe that we have been friends for 5 years now! It feels like we are still in 4th grade cheering on the playground :) I will always remember as long as I live because you are the sister I never had, but would have loved to have as long as you were the exact same way you are now :) Shelby Leeann Wood. My cousin, sister, best friend, and the person I would die if I had to live without. You have taught me the most out of everyone in my life. You have brought out over the years the fun loving, caring, and kind side of me (when i want to be!). You have also been there for me when I didn't want to deal with it all anymore. You have always been a person I could turn to with all my problems, and the person I want to be around all the time :) Carlos Westbrook. You have taught me to not take things too seriously because life is supposed to be spontanious and fun! You have also showed me the fun side of things, and the brighter side of everything :) Brooklyn Sondegroth. You've only been here 5 months, and you have had a huge impact on my life :) You showed me that I can be silly, and serious all at the same time :) We cried together during Ticking (especially when Catherine died!), we have 2A together, 4A together, and we both think Mr. Logan is a creep! haha just kidding on the creep part :) Girl I love you :) Last but certainly not least, Mamma Pender. Even though you aren't here to read this today, I know you are looking down on me as i write :) I love you with all my heart and more. You taught me how to be a lady, and you made me the person i am today. I miss you a lot, and kick myself for not saying a proper goodbye before you passed. I hope you forgive me and I want you to know that i appreciate everything you did for me and everything you taught me. I can't wait for the day that we meet again. I love you Mamma :)

Okay that's all of it! I hope everyone mentioned reads this to know how much i care and love them all. Thank you all for everything you did for me and showed me. I truly love each and everyone of you with every morsel and atom of my being. And now you all know :)

The Other Side of Love

The crack of a whip is all you hear,
She cries to make you stay,
yet yells and screams and has a fit,
nothing you can say.

More and more she tightens the grip,
On your short little leash,
You go along with the charade,
Like and endless game of hide and seek.

She says 'i live you' and she cares,
But does she really mean it there?
Or does she just leave everything you lay out to bare.

Why can't you see the elephant in the room,
Or even the torture she puts you through?

But in the end of this tragic tale,
You walk away victorious,
Because you saw the ending fail.

Friday, April 30, 2010

A Letter For My Love


Walking through the halls,
Wave as we both pass,
Never say a word...Never meant to last.

Watching, waiting, and wanting to be by you,
My hopes and dreams are nothing new.

I hate to hide, I hate to say,
I hate to look away.

Now I see the one i want,
The one I can't have,
Can't flaunt.

Want to hold, love, and touch,
Want it to be,
Just as much.

But as I sit in the warm spring air,
My heart aches,
My hands bare.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Relationships


How do you deal with a break up? How do you get over an ex when they were such a big part of your life? How do you find the right words to tell someone to start a relationship? If you were faced with these questions, how would you answer them? Relationships are easy one minute, then the next they turn for the worse. Why do you think it's so hard to get over an ex when they were in your life for so long? A friend of mine was dating the same guy for almost a year when he broke up with her randomly one day. Now this wasn't the first time, but it was definitely the last. It has been about 2 and a half months since they broke up, but she isn't over him yet. Do you think she is being over dramatic if she cries over him? Do you think she should be over him after so much time? If you answered yes to both questions, then put yourself in her shoes. She and this guy had something, and i mean really had something. Her friends (me included) have told her that she needs to get over him, but now that i think about it, it was a selfish thing for us all to say. If she isn't over him, then we should be there to help her through this time in her life. Another story is about a girl who was dating a guy for a little over 4 months. The two of then really had something as well, and more then one person saw it and saw that they really loved each other. They recently broke up and the girl is heartbroken. Do you think she should be so upset even though they weren't dating that long? But does length of a relationship really matter? Or is it the depth of the connection that the two people shared that really matters in the end? All of the questions i have asked can be answered easily if you have never had to go through a break up or bad relationship, but when you have, they aren't as easy as they seem. Relationships are hard at times, but if you fight through the hard times and enjoy the good, you will come out stronger in the end. Relationships should never be too hard if you were meant to be, but if they are, wait it out and enjoy each others company. And now you know :)

Sunday, March 14, 2010

We can do something!

I have some shocking news for you all...well more questions than news. Did you know that 1.1 billion people in Africa right now are drinking dirty muddy water because there is no other option for them? Did you know that you can do something about that? This is just an idea for now, but i'm going to raise money for the clean water crisis in Africa! now some of you probably think i'm crazy for doing this, but hopefully you will open your hearts for this cause and these helpless people. more information will be coming if you want to join in!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

False Advertising...

Would you feel safer inside a cardboard box during a raging war? or a bomb shelter? Do you feel safer in the city, or wayyy out in the outskirts of town? Well i thought that my belongings in my purse would be safe for 88 minutes while I participated in gym class, but was I wrong or what!? You see, while i was playing some friendly games of football with my classmates, someone thought it would be fun to go into my purse and steal my ipod touch, and 100+ dollars from my wallet! Okay okay, i will take responsibility for the money because i shouldn't have brought that much to school, but I will NOT take responsibility for my ipod! We are all thinking our stuff is safe in that locker room because there are signs saying the doors are to remained LOCKED at all times. Well the one day that it isn't and I leave my purse in there, my stuff gets stolen. I talked it over with Mr.Cornell, and he first said that they didn't have time to deal with this problem. But when I returned to the office to see if he had found anything, he apologized for what he said the previous time...!!!!!????? okay so he disregards the problems of students (who's belongings were stolen on the property of the school!) and goes on with his dandy day?! Wow, and they say they care about us? hmm...last time i checked when you care about someone, you don't just brush them off. After reading this, don't you just feel sooooo much safer at the school? :D I know I do! hahaha! Well now you really know all the false safety the school advertises! keep checking in...and: GIVE ME BACK MY IPOD WHOEVER STOLE IT! AND MY MONEY! THIS IS RIDICULOUS! I HATE FENTON!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Posting

sorry all! I couldn't get on/ I really didn't have anything to post :p Well I don't really have anything today either cuz it's a Sunday! so i guess i will see you all tomorrow. OH! wait the guy from Growing Pains who disappeared was found dead in a park the other day :/ i really liked that show...comment and tell me what you think about all of it :/

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Cheaters!

There are many different types of cheating in Fenton High. there is cheating on a test, cheating on a boyfriend/girlfriend (which is really bad! don't do it!), and cheating your best friend. All are bad, so why do we do them? i was recently informed that my best guy friend got cheated on by his girlfriend of about 4 months. but this is the kicker, she did this three weeks into their relationship, THREE WEEKS! how messed up is that?! i can't release names, but i will tell you that i am very unhappy! but back to the other two types of cheating. I talked with my science teacher and he said that the reason we are not aloud to listen to music during tests is because some students in the past for his class recorded themselves saying all the answers to the test and then put it on their ipod! how DUMB do you have to be! if that' not cheating, i don't know what is! My last point, cheating your best friend (or so you thought!). My bestest friend ever, Mary, and her boyfriend of almost a year had just broken up a few weeks before Sadie's. she is in my lunch and she has told all of her friends that she would rather t=not see her ex right now, but our other friend (insert name here!) called him over to where they were talking in the square and proceeded to hug him and then say "I Love You!" to him as he walked to his class...RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER! Then (insert name here!) turns around to Mary and says "Yeah, i LOVE how me and (insert name here) are like BEST friends now!" Mary just walked away. Another instance of cheating your best friend would be dating an ex and not telling you until about 6 months into the relationship! I mean come on people! can't we all just set a rule here and now saying that you shoul probably ask your friend if they are ok if you date their ex?! UGH! Well now you know! keep checkin in!
~Sarahsaur2010

Monday, February 22, 2010

Life

Watching my super swert 16 on MTV I have ralized that kids on this show don't understand that they look like idiots on national tv! Can you believe a girl got mad because her parents got her a Lexus for the special day, but it wasn't the one she wanted?! So she proceded to whine and cy like a little girl until they took it back! Good golly! If my parents bought me a car, I would die!!! Wow it makes me really think about all the things I have :) so next time you rich little brats complain abot gettin a car, just remeber all of te little ppl who watch the show and got you the fame. Well now you know!
-sarahsaur2010

Blogging

Well this is my first entry into my blog...and i have no idea what to write about! i thought starting a blog would be easy and i would be able to write about anything, but when you have a snow day, things are pretty slow :/ i mean my High school is sooooo packed with drama and fights and makeups, breakups, parties, and gossip! But the one downside is that we all live in Michigan so we get a lot of snow, and not a lot of sun. I think in a normal school year we have between 4 and 5 snow days because every time we start to lose the snow that has been around since the middle of November, and stays until about May, we get a huge storm and get snowed in and lucked out on green grass. If we don't have green grass by March, then we don't have snow for Christmas! I swear Michigan is a very bi-polar state. well i have homework to do (big shock there!), and people to see. And now you know!
~SarahSaur2010